I thought I could do it...
I took a consulting role and I love the people, the content and learning more about creating apps. What I didn't think about/consider, was that moving from a leadership to a PM position (details, timelines, meeting scheduling...and very little leadership) that I'd be so disappointed, de-motivated and bored. Everything going on in the world right now is weighing so heavy on my heart...I'm sad and worried. So that doesn't help when I let my emotions take control - but this job is killing my motivation. I was offered a VP job...and while it would be so much more of a commitment, time, etc., I don't think my brain can stay here. I'll be mush before the contract is finished. Is this 'real' - or asked another way, have any of you had this happen.
Why didn't you initially take the VP role since you were offered it? I really think that you just need to recognize that regardless of any position that you are in, there is a lot going on in the world right now that has negatively impacted everyone and to feel the need to still be functionally career savvy just adds to the pressure of it all. I feel that way as well, but we are still human beings so go ahead and feel what you feel because it's ok but also encourage yourself to be true to who you are and why you made your decision without being hard on yourself. Get your rest, lean on others for support and find refuge in doing good unto others but most of all just remember that life is short so find ways no matter how small, to appreciate every bit about yours and take it as slowly as you possibly can. You are your own Executive in Chief!
I would take the VP job. I think it might be what you are looking for especially if you are looking for a leadership role. AND, you are doing something right if they are offering you the VP position.
Thank you so much! Those other factors have taken me down this past week...I'm crying more than ever. And you're so right on it...I don't feel like I'm contributing.
Consulting can be brutal because you don't get the opportunity for input, you're "just" an execution arm. It is absolutely draining and can be demotivating, especially during times when so many other factors are weighing heavy on our hearts and minds.
From my perspective I'd take the VP job, especially if you'll have the real opportunity to make impactful decisions and drive culture.