The idea of going to work at the hospital where I work not only makes my anxiety worse but makes me feel like throwing up. Why? Because as a nurses aide or PCA as they call us my job requires me to work 12 hour shifts that are extremely stressful and hard on my back. Now my back is messed up to the point where I had to go to the ER, my carpal tunnel has flarred up again all due to having to lift and move patients or having patients turn into dead weight and I have to keep them from falling. I have tried applying for office jobs at the hospital but keep getting turned down. However it is to the point of could I survive on my income tax refund until i found a new job or must I continue to suffer physically and mentally at work while crying in my car on the way to and from work?