Nonetheless, 2020 has been a year for many of us in so many different ways.
This year, I realized I have imposter syndrome and how it has affected my life in so many ways from so many opportunities for so many years of my life. Obviously, this realization wasn't until I started therapy last year.
I cut off most of my friends because their goals did not line up with mine and additionally they would make me feel small. They did not seem happy for me or believed in me. Of course, they're not terrible people - we just outgrew one another.
As for my family, I love them but sometimes they make it hard for me to grow. They never give me positive feedback. I am the black sheep of my family and I have accepted that but it becomes a struggle when they don't believe in you. It gets tiring to become your own cheerleader. It doesn't help I live with them. My therapist told me, "You can't heal in the same place you got hurt." Which means I need to move out, but the pandemic makes it hard but I am still working on it.
Therefore, I realized I need a new community around me with individuals who are goal-oriented and headstrong. Does anyone have suggestions on how to network more and find a new community? I think it's something I really need for my own growth. :)