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I've been working for 4yrs 1/2, but it seems I'll always be considered as a jr professional.
Two years ago I moved into a new company in a turn-overing department: eldest colleagues were moving into other departments.
After some troubles during the first 6 months (one of the teammate, who fortunately moved, likes arguing with all and considering women such a rubbish),
I spent the following 6 months learning a lot and being autonomous in all activities with none teaching me at all.
Colleagues who arrived after me (with longer previous exp rather than me) considered me as the most experienced in most of arguments.
Time passes, I've gained more experience working in different projs and after covid-impact we started working alone at home.
I faced difficult moments due to isolation and family problems, but I've worked every day with same energy as being at the office.
During my last review process, my boss said I really impressed her during this year and I improved experience and working approach, obtaining great results.
However, she said a lot of times that I'm the 'youngest' not only referring to personal age but also to working experience and salary ("other ones started working before you and they have more exp in terms of years")... it seems to me I'm doing nothing compared to colleagues only for experience.
I'm honest, I thought this could be the moment to obtain a (little) promotion instead of an activity bonus. I know my salary is quite low for working for 4 yrs, and I'm looking for a new company at first to improve my salary but I love my job.
She started saying me that due to covid the company reduced the total bonus for all departments, and she will decide how to redistribute it into the depm both for bonuses and promotions.
After all these words about me, I'm worried about being exclued by her for bonuses or promos and I think it would not correct for all my dedition to work and company.
I don't know how I could approach such a bad news in case she will give it to me.
I'd tell her I'm not happy for her decision, claiming for my dedication to work and results in these years, and "taking my choice".
But I think I'd appear childish and immature.
Any suggestions?
Thank u all
Anonymous
09/05/20 at 12:14PM UTC
Hi Kyla, thank you for your time. Well, my boss and I previously talked about her perception of my "career position" in the dept and she said nothing could stop me from stepping further in my employment into the company. But I'm not sure about it and not sure she is really appreciating my support and contribution because she often states about my possibility of maternity leaving someday (this is not in my plans right now but...) and (excluding her) I'm the only woman into the dept. I often think: why hiring me if you're scared of a maternity leave? I have only negative thoughts I know. I'm scared to not make further steps both financially and professionally, especially before thinking about a family, due to sticky bosses and reasons.
Kyla Duffy
Your Career Alchemist
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09/04/20 at 4:33PM UTC
Before you get to that step, I would encourage you to take a look at your self-image and how it's been impacted by this job. You mentioned being "youngest" in age and experience. What does that bring up for you? Is that how you see yourself? I can see that you also acknowledge yourself for being dedicated, self-motivated to learn, and able to work autonomously, and I'm wondering if those are values that are important to this boss or if she prioritizes something else as being "promotion-worthy." What appears to me is that perhaps your vision of a valuable employee and her vision are not aligned. Maybe this is something to have a preemptive conversation about? Just some thoughts.
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