I'm losing hope

I never write posts like this. Anywhere. But I'm just so tired. Of looking, of trying, of staying positive. I am a book editor by trade. I used to work in house, used to have a Managing Editor title. But now I'm a freelancer. I've been a freelance book editor and sometimes writer for a long time. Too long in fact. I've been working less because I'm trying to find an in-house position again--either in book publishing or a related field where I can be useful. And I've had no results. At all. And since it's quite an effort to properly job hunt and I'm working less I'm making much less money (not that I was making that much in the first place, that is.) Sometimes I get rejections, sometimes I get no reply at all. I've had professional help with my resume, I'm networking. I just can't make any progress. I'm fifty years old, divorced, with no children and no money and feel very, very unaccomplished and useless. I'm sorry. I just really needed a place to rant.