Don't give up , you're close. When you feel like giving up, don't. When you feel you are at the breaking point, connect with friends, be around pets/animals and breathe. Apply, connect, but don't think about the past and "why me". Instead as a Peloton instructor said "Not why me" but "Try me"
I am rooting for you! You can do it, have a good weekend, rest, and then get back in the game.