Warning: this is not an uplifting post. I am not sure what I am even asking...
I am stuck. I have been for...ever? I have been employed since I was 13, until 4 years ago when I was forced to resign or quit. I am now 40.
I have a BS, and MS degree, along with 2 professional licenses. They took me 80k and nearly 12 years to get.
Since being unemployed, Ive lost all professional identity. The hours I worked (and the type of work) prevented any meaningful relationships, friends, or 'network', precluded family, and even hobbies. I have moved all over the country and never stayed in one place longer than 2 years.
I have no interest in anyone or anything. I am not good at anything. I am not qualified, apparently for anything.
I completed a professional certificate and got certified in a new "hot" field - Thinking I could go back to work with that - however - my resume & my experience do not sych with what HR is looking for. I have no network. I am not a new grad. I am ineligible for internships. I am not prepared to go back to school for more debt. Besides- no guarantee I'd get a job then either. I am instead, a 40 year old with 4 years unemployment. I feel out of time, out of place, out of synch with others. I always have. I think: I have 30 more years of this.
When I see articles about 'networking is the only way to get a job', hiring bias - ageism, genderism, racism, bias against fat people, against introverted people, cultural bias, the only way to get a raise is if you are liked by your colleagues and you self-promote - but in a likable say- makes me just want to crawl in a hole. you must have LinkedIn and create 'branding' and a 'cohesive narrative'. I just think- this is all BS. I am just so tired. Very very tired of all of it.