Having a better career

I'm sitting at work right at this moment thinking about things that I want to pursue that I could have pursued a long time ago...like modeling. I started in middle school but never got to go any further because my mother decided to remove me and that reason was because she did not necessarily approve of me wearing makeup. I can totally understand that now as an adult because I'm not going to want my 13 year old having makeup splattered on her face either. Also I started writing as a young girl around the age of 8 years old and became a published author at the age of 13 and i have published 4 poetry anthologies. Why did I stop writing? Well for 1 my publisher ripped me off. I'm supposed to be getting paid and I haven't gotten one dime since I started and my books are available on amazon and Barnes and Noble. He keeps telling me that if they're not selling then I don't get paid but they have to be selling if they're going from one website another. I can be doing so much better but I settled for this job right here as a security officer.