Please, please speak to someone. Reach out to your doctor right away because you need support. Your post broke my heart and it's not ok if you feel like this. You are not alone.

Being a mom is hard! Some days are harder than others, for sure. You need support so that you can be the best mom to your little boy. Please reach out to your doctor - I am sure he or she can recommend a good therapist.

What city are you in, hopefully we can get some specific contacts for resources in your area. I know of some in the New Orleans amd surrounding area, and would be happy to share.

Best advice has been given. You will be amazed at how much better you'll feel once you speak with someone. A therapist can help you sort things and put a plan of action together. You have so many choices and a new life is waiting for you.

There are resources available for you, some free of charge. You have support and you're not alone in this.

Dear friend - please reach out to anyone I MEAN ANYONE right away. I’m praying for you and your child.

It sounds like you may need to speak to someone about how you're feeling. My heart broke when I read your post and can't imagine how heavy this must weigh on you. Good luck and sending you positive thoughts and vibes!

I can't imagine what you're dealing with here, but it breaks my heart to hear you suffering. I don't know what your personal beliefs are but I highly recommend talking to a professional. You never know how many tools and advice they can give that might at least help you not feel so miserable. No one deserves to suffer like that. You and your son's life will be better for it.