How to put effort in to work when you find no value
How do I motivate my self to work again?
Most days I come to work, talk to nobody, and do random web searching before going home - doing the minimalist work possible. I realize that this would result in bad performance reviews- but up to this point, my direct boss nor anyone has said ANYTHING. Thus making this bad habit continue.
As I've spent my time like this, I've wondered why do I do this when I know the outcome will be so bad? The only reasoning I've found was because whatever work I do, I end up having to put SO much effort that it caused me to burnout multiple times. And myself wanting no more of it now.
The last time I tried to start a project, I had to convince my superiors why we needed it and they ended up staying you can do it but gave absolutely no support at all. And I had to convince my peers to do it with me, and they found no value in it at all. Thus the project not running unless I was doing everything myself.
With a mentality already like this, how do I be motivated again?