I am writing this post because I am at a point in my life where I just feel lost and hopeless. I want to become healthier physically, emotionally, and financially, but it's just not happening.
I am stuck at a job where the first thing I came to work to this morning was my boss criticizing me for sending an email. I haven't been happy at this job for a few months now and I have been looking for work since before New Year's, but nothing has happened. I've only received rejection upon rejection OR a scam calling me for an interview because I "submitted" my application to them (which I never did).
One other thing I despise about my job is that I have a different schedule every week. I have no room for side hustles on the weekends or even to be able to schedule fitness classes (like I said, I'm trying to better myself physically as well). Before this job, I had was at a job with a stable Monday to Friday schedule that allowed me more room for side hustles or that room I need to take fitness classes or to just rest. Unfortunately, that job cut my hours because it was the slow season and they weren't generating much money. That being said, I'm head of household and it's difficult to not make as much money as I possibly can.
With that previous job, I was paying my bills every month and was making money on the side that I was putting towards my last class in grad school. Now? I'm living paycheck to paycheck and all of the money I saved up for school has gone to paying bills. I thought that having a 40 hour a week job that had benefits (horrible ones, at that) and paid me more than my last job was going to be a better path to take. Boy, was I wrong!
I hate that I cannot find anything in the field I studied in college. I graduated with a Bachelor's in Psychology and when I started applying for jobs in my field after college, I was rejected because I didn't have experience in psych. That's why I decided to get my master's in counseling. Unfortunately, I was short of my hours during my last internship course and I failed. I haven't been able to retake the class since because I have no money to pay for it.
I have experience in retail and customer service. I've even worked as a receptionist at medical offices, and as a tutor and academic coach at a local community college. I have counseling experience due to my internships. I work as a brand ambassador for liquor companies on the side (whenever I find an event that fits my crazy schedule, that is).
I feel like I have so much to offer, but I feel like no one sees my potential and is willing to take a chance on me. I just feel really hopeless. I keep getting rejected by the places I apply to and I just want to find a better job. I just want all of this stress to end!
** UPDATE: Here is the link to my LinkedIn profile: linkedin.com/in/ntpgalang