Job depression is real.
Hi all, please bear with me as this is a lengthy piece where I just need to vent.
While I'm grateful to be working and support my family, my job is making me incredibly depressed and frustrated. I've been seeking a new role since January and I started this role in Oct 2023 after being laid off in Feb 2023.
I took this role out of necessity because I've never felt good about being hungry or having a hungry child. But this role at this Fintech place is an abomination. I work with children in adult bodies. There is no pleasurable metric to satisfy their bs.
It's literally a place of you are damned if you do and damned if you don't. I do not trust a single person who works in this company so I keep to myself all of the time, pretty much in isolation.
The newest head scratcher is being told by my Mgr that while I am exceeding their metrics, she worries I work too fast. Internally I probably looked like the Anger emotion from Inside Out when she said that bc wtf does that even mean... ? How does mgmt justify being so nitpicky and annoying all of the time, while hiding behind the guise of wanting to be your buddy.
While I'm not a suicidal person the thought of jumping in front of a train often runs through my brain on my way to the office just to not deal w these people and feel this miserable.
I feel that I'm aging the game how they want us to, doing what is asked of me and nothing else. I decline every single non-mandatory get together, do the work of at least 2 or 3 people, and the only complaints they can manage is that I work too fast. I am praying something else comes along because my spirit is dead here. I enjoy worming but not for a place as out of touch with reality as I'm at now. I'm so frustrated and over it.
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Anonymous
I feel your pain and wish I could help you. I wish there was support for all of us suffering these types of issues. My employer wrote me up for being too happy. I wasn't angry enough or aggressive enough but also said I pushed back to hard and too often. Didn't add up. I was also told my project was the least of their worries but yet, I am not doing things that I was never told to do. We are often to blame when there are no answers or there is no one else to blame and the mirror doesn't show what they want it to show. There used to be a time when you could file a complaint with the department of employment security. This type of behavior was not allowed. Now, they only care if you are being discriminated against related to race. Working in a toxic environment should be an issue as well. If your employer is bullying you, mistreating you, or outright forcing you to do things that make no sense, there should be a place for you to turn. We just don't have support anymore. People say why do you stay but sometimes it is so much harder to walk away. The job market is not at all what it appears to be. Employers are asking for the impossible in job skills and experience, or you need AI to write an AI resume. I wish you the best in your situation. I hope you get out of it. I am working to leave Corporate America after 30 years. I cannot do this anymore. I am miserable as well. There has to be something better out there than the abuse we receive from these people who call themselves humans as well. Best of luck.
Anonymous
I've been there! Developed insomnia, lostc11 pounds (not deliberately), developed stomach issues(see a pattern here)? I went to a psychiatrist and got on anti anxiety and anti depressant meds and started seeing a social worker, all of which which really helped a lot. I wasn't in a position to quit and the work environment was so toxic! Ended up being let go out of the blue after almost 2 years and it was such a blessing!