Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, aka, PTSD, a mental disorder I never knew existed until Dec, 2018. Almost 2 months after the final knock down in a long abusive relationship, with me loosing the ability to speak and rushed to the ER, to learn that I am suffering from a dissociative speech disorder, due to fear and extremely stressful situation.
The months following I have gone through all the unbearable symptoms that any PTSD patient would go through, all the difficulties, the memory being relived through a high end VR gear. I felt at times that if I open my mouth, I would through up my soul!
Despite that, I kept using any minute I can to get back to work ans quickly get my professional career going after years of on and off and being used for the success of an abusive partner without being acknowledged!
It was the toughest thing to do, but still any step forward gave me content and a pinch of self confidence that was lost.
Al most 2 years later, I am 100 times better, despite some blue and anxious days. I am a positive role model to my kids and many friends, and I am able to earn the respect and trust of employers and colleagues.
It is still a long journey to go, to be as I want to see myself, but I am determined to go all the way, I love life, my kids, my profession, and above all myself!
To all my sisters out there, who have been in a similar situation and the PTSD ghost has taken over their lives and left weak especially after having years with an abusive narcissistic partner, there is hope, you have a full life in front of you, take baby steps, even if just from your bed! Seek help, speak your mind, scream, get OUT all the negativity that has been engraved in you for so long. Believe in yourself even if no one else does. You are the only one who knows exactly how you feel, what you have been through, and if you are still alive to read these lines, then hey, you are a true warrior, a survivor!
I know 2 things after this journey:
1. I am on the better side of the equation. I would never like being the abuser.
2. I am sure that the outcome of such journey is a more empathetic person with a strong heart and will. Some one who can analyze inputs better and see beyond the presented reality.
Now put all these attributes to a hard working professional, and I know that your future and anyone’s you touch will be filled with fireworks and success.
All my love and best wishes to you all!
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The only problem is that I’m not a fan of 40 hour workweeks, and this job is an 8-5 M-F. I’ve worked 40 hour weeks before and I felt miserable and guilty that I couldn’t spend times with my friends, family, and partner. I felt like all I did was work and had no time for myself. I also have a physical disability that, while it doesn’t stop me from working, completely drains me at the end of a working day. In my previous 9-5 job, I would be asleep by 7 pm and sleep 10+ hours easily.
I asked this company if I could have slightly less hours or a four day workweek and I was told it’s not possible. The company is a reputable state-wide business that I would be happy to work for, but those hours are making me have second thoughts. Any advice?
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I'm looking to connect with a recruiter that's looking for a Mid-Level to director candidate.
I have over 15 years of leadership and strategy building experience. Looking for salary 90K - 120. I keep getting calls from companies that know I'm over qualified for. So I need to connect with someone that can weed out the spam.
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I was recently terminated from Playing for a Church As A Musician, but was asked stay until they found someone else to replace me. I chose to not ever remain in that Particular atmosphere of denounced ongoing rejection. Yes the pay was somewhat ok, but it wasn't worth my Peace Of Mind, although I did post for other employment on Facebook, just for backup only,not with an intention to leave that Particular place of employment.,but as I already stated earlier, all of that negatively wasn't worth my Peace of Mind. Yes I still Love every one at that former Particular place of employment, whereas I did post on the group me page of that Particular former place of employment, after Praying and seeking GOD of what to say, I never mentioned my termination, but told each and every member of that Particular Congregation that I was no longer there due to lots of negative contentions. Sometimes a Person has to do what is necessary for the having of Peace of Mind, which can't be bought, nor negotiated. So I highly suggest that Sometimes when we seem to be at our worst of times,just remember that better times,and better days are ahead. So continue to be encouraged and always remember to Keep GOD 1st, in your lives, and things will always work out for the Good...
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Subcontractor -loss of a client to another firm.
Recently, the company for which I am employed as a subcontractor lost a client.... the contract was awarded to another firm... low bid award. After a few months, the company that was awarded the contract contacted me and asked if I want to subcontract with him and handle this client.... I dont think he knew what he was getting into :). My contract with the company that lost the bid states "I am free to do other work ...not for the company". What are your thoughts on me doing the consulting work for this other firm that was awarded the bid..I will be working with the same contacts. Do I let the company that lost the bid know about it? I do have other clients for which I provide consulting work with this company. Want to be ethical but not stupid!
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Hello! I have been in my current role for around 2 years now. I have a background in computer science and math and landed a non-coding role right after graduating. I went to another company after in hopes that I can get my hands dirty with code again and I was a little rough in the beginning since I haven't been doing it for the year and a half prior to this role. My manager and tech lead-- they weren't that encouraging and fed into my imposter syndrome and even told me that "coding isn't for everyone". I wasn't particularly bad at it-- i was able to help with a lot of features and pages that contributed to what has recently been launched. Since then, i have been pulled out of a developer role and into this customer support role where I am not able to see myself grow or ever get promoted while my knowledge for all those languages I once knew is escaping me. I tried talking to my manager earlier last year about grad school and pursuing a masters in UI/UX/HCI since thats where my passions lie and i can get back to what I have originally intended on doing with more structured learning in a niched subset of computer science but he automatically rejected it saying that he believes this customer support role is "good for my career growth". I was recently part of an internal hackathon where I used python as a techstack to build a working prototype for our idea and i was so happy being able to code again and it felt more like home. I feel stuck and am not sure how to proceed. I'm still early in my career and am afraid that this will affect how my career is paved out right now. The job market is rough right now and im not able to look for new roles either. not sure how to proceed.
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I am a Experience Designer who graduates from Parsons School of Design.
I have been looking for a job for 8 months to no success. Does anyone has suggestions that I can incorporate or improve?