I had a 5 year friendship with this girl since 2015. I was always there for her whenever she has problems and tantrums. I was always the one she talked about her heart breaks. Time went by and all we did were all about her life, all about her problems, all about her love life. Well, I had my own life too. I had a job and she's still studying. She had her heart broken again and I was always there for her. I kept telling her to break up with him because he has nothing to do with her growth and mental health. I was there even the anniversary of my boyfriend but i still chose to be on her side. Then i got mad because she got back to her ex who hurt her a lot and never told me. She just greeted me a not special "Happy New year" for welcoming of 2020. So i thought that whenever she felt okay with her love life, I will just be a friend of nothing. She did not even though about my suicidal times, my broken family times, my sleepless nights and day etc.
I tried to tell her that we gonna end the friendship because we were not good with each other because I also tried to unfollow her on twitter. She also messaged what tf was my problem but i did not reply because i had another depression and anxiety. After 2 months I messaged her, "how are you? I miss you " but she plainly reply "im okay hehe". Then there I knew, the friendship is not gonna work anymore. It ended like all my efforts for her were nothing but just because i tried to know my worth with being emotional towards here for just 1 moment, it ended our friendship.
i just wanna ask? is it me or her? Is it real friendship or another toxic one?