I started a job 2 mos. ago as a finance director and I feel like a fish out of water. I have eight years of finance experience and 10 years of management experience, but my new position is w/ a mortgage co. which is new for me. I was excited about the opportunity because it was a new industry for me though I have experience, and I felt lucky to be able to transition during the pandemic. I was also excited because it fit w/ my personal goals of working for a co. that gives back to the community and I thought I could learn a lot about the mortgage and leading industry especially since I'm looking to purchase a second home that I'll rent out part of the time.
Of course w/ the pandemic there are challenges because the office is closed and so my onboarding has been virtual. And regardless of how much experience you have, I know it takes time to get acclimated to a job.
I've been constantly asking for things to do, and haven't been getting much of a response from my boss (CFO). When he does give me something or ask me for something it's usually 5 mins. before he needs it and it's not clear what he wants. I've learned in talking to others and being in meetings and overhearing conversations, that this is just how he is, so I try not to take it personal. But to be honest, I take it very personal because my growth and success are important and personal to me. I've had a few one on ones w/ him and have tried to schedule more to no avail. I've asked him what's his preferred communication style and have discussed how I typically communicate because I'm trying to find a match and common ground here. Not having much luck.
I went back to the drawing board (the job description I was provided) to see if I could gather what else I'm responsible for and can do. It's vague. The position is also a newly created position. It just doesn't seem like the co. or my boss really has a clear plan of what they need and what the job should be.
Fast forward to last week, and my boss asked me to compile notes in one meetings. Okay, fine. He also assigned me the task of sending out a meeting request. I'm not above or beneath any task, but when I do get an assignment, it seems like a task better suited for an administrative assistant, or it's something that he simply doesn't want to do. I guess I should be careful what I ask for, but I don't want to be in a dumping position, and the lack of communication and the manner in which things are communicated is frustrating. I was asked 5 mins. into a mtg to join it only to discover it was an audit meeting. I didn't know we were in the middle of an internal audit. I feel like this is something that could have been discussed in the one on one. Then I was asked to respond to the auditors findings. Well I didn't work for the co. in 2019, so while I've done several audits in other positions, this isn't a task I feel that I can complete. I'm not a fan of mission impossible. I don't know how you assign a task w/ no context or clear expectations.
Some days I think I can't do this job and I feel like an impostor, other days I'm just bored or frustrated at the inconsistency. I'm not sure what I should or shouldn't be doing. Not sure what to do at this point.