I used to work full time as a receptionist in a very toxic company. My boss and I did not see eye to eye and I had a lot of dread and anxiety going into work every day. I eventually ended up being one of many people they got rid of not long after the company sold. Which, I'm not really upset about because I was not in a good place mentally or emotionally. Before that I worked part time as a restaurant hostess and that sucked, too.
Right now I work part time at a place I do really love, but there will never be full time opportunity or any more room for advancement. I did a general studies program at a local community college and completed my A.A., but that really doesn't mean much or give me any leg-up.
I'm looking for a new full time job right now, but I'm feeling so down and dejected. I don't want another dead end job that's going to make me want to put my head through a wall every day, and I don't want to work weekends anymore. I also don't want to go back to school because I don't want to be stuck with student loans. Obviously... that doesn't leave me with much. Plus any job listing I come across that looks like it could be an option wants experience in this, and so many year experience in that.
I've been thinking about opening my own bookstore, and I get really excited when I think about it. But, I have a lot to learn about being a business owner and having employees, and who has the money to open a store from the ground up? So that also feels out of reach.
I feel like I'm completely screwed and will never get anywhere and I'm spiraling back into a bad mental space of hopelessness...
What can I do? Has anyone been in my shoes that can offer some advice?