Hello, I'm brand new to this website but have been searching for some help or guidance. I'm starting to think that how I feel is starting to impact my mental health and need to do something about it. Here's my story, there's a few factors involved.
First, I work for a union with a very good salary. I am the first fulltime person ever hired to create admin organization, do marketing, get the members involved in the community, get the union involved politically, while supporting all of the business agents & representatives. Sounds like I should be very busy, right? Well, I'm not. I don't dislike my job but I am feeling like the salary I make is too much for the amount of work I do. I know this probably sounds terrible and like I am just a brat but in my mind, I should working my butt off with this salary. Yes, there is much to be done and yes I'm practically on call at all times to quickly write a letter or give a grievance number but I just can't justify being paid via members' dues and not being busier. Yes, I have two masters degrees so maybe I don't know my worth but I feel unethical constantly looking for a new project for me to concentrate on. This is messing with my head. There is a potential that we will be organizing workers in our area which I'm told will add a lot to my workload and keep me busy but we're not there yet.
Second, I either work from home (alone) or at our little office most of the time alone. Apparently, I'm too much of a social person for this. I miss having coworkers. I feel isolated and that mixed with feeling like my position is valueless isn't going well.
Lastly, speaking of those masters degrees. My ultimate career goal is to working in public policy or something government related. I went to undergrad in DC and crave that career path. Though moving to DC isn't an option I intended this current position to be my stepping stone. I intend on getting the union involved in local politics while growing my network. I'm not saying this won't happen but right now my "main" project is working with a printer to get an apparel website up and running for members to buy sweatshirts and hats. Again, this might sound bad but I sometimes think to myself, "I studied political philosophy to be organizing t-shirt sales? ". I feel like I put so much effort into building the foundation for a strong, meaningful career and right now I'm just feeling lonely and valueless. I know the guys I work with appreciate all I do especially because this support position didn't exist before but it's just not enough for me.
Thanks for reading and I hope I don't sound like a brat.