How to cope with a Job you no longer want to invest your time into but can’t figure out how to get another?

Hi, to get straight to the point, my whole life I have been forced to take roles that I really was not informed about completely nor were they really MY choice, but rather influence by external factors or another person... I have always had to scrape by with whatever job I could land that was seemingly most “convenient” or “entry level.” I have worked numerous industries by now all for the sake of a paycheck and not career-based or even a real fit for my personality. And because of factors including but not limited to extreme dissatisfaction, relocating to another area, and I have been laid off a few times but not for misconduct or anything just couldn’t provide me the hours. I have been “job hopping” for years due to the fact that no job I have taken I could withstand longer then months to a couple years because they were a mix of unethical, low pay, workplace favoritism etc etc , this included retail, healthcare, and fitness related industries. I HATE my work history and writing a resume is daunting because I didn’t have the privilege or opportunities others had available all through my 20s and I was in a horrific “relationship” that corrupted any career choices I would have otherwise been able to make. I am early into my 30s now and feeling time like a pressure cooker upon me making me super anxious to find a career that I want to keep and not worry about job hopping. I am currently in retail with insufficient pay to support myself after I graduated with my bachelors. I share my apartment to avoid moving in with my parents, and otherwise just really getting demotivated to keep living my life, seeing everyone else own businesses and strike it rich and successful. I was taught by parents way of life that it will never be me. However, I have siblings that are doing very well. I have a complex about my own life because I have that horrible relationship in my past that has negated me and corrupted my work history on top of it, so I feel like I am actually starting from scratch. I would really appreciate any advice. I am looking to go for my masters but still want to quit my current job to earn more for living expenses. I love to write, and possess true professional integrity but companies don’t seem to care if you don’t fit their qualifications. I feel stuck in limbo and just unsure where to look for better pay, what you would do in MY shoes? Thanks for reading.