I was compelled to write and share something when I saw the news that only 1 of the officers that shot and killed Breonna Taylor, was not only NOT charged with her murder, but charged with - Wanton Endangerment. In the state of Kentucky, this is defined as the following:
508.060 Wanton endangerment in the first degree. (1) A person is guilty of wanton endangerment in the first degree when, under circumstances manifesting extreme indifference to the value of human life, he wantonly engages in conduct which creates a substantial danger of death or serious physical injury to another person. (2) Wanton endangerment in the first degree is a Class D felony. Effective: January 1, 1975 History: Created 1974 Ky. Acts ch. 406, sec. 70, effective January 1, 1975.
TLDR - this officer is charged with endangering others.
It is inhumane, disgusting, upsetting, gut-punching; it is all of the emotions. The severe and blatant disregard for human life; now looked over, because according to this indictment, the safety of others was in danger. It’s so sick.
As I feel all of these emotions, I, along with most black men and women, are also hella tired, and also not surprised at this outcome.
Is it wrong to be numb to these outcomes? Would we be remiss if we didn't post about it on our social media? Am I not supportive of the BLM movement, if I don’t want to protest?
I think not.
Being black in corporate America, I find myself more and more trying to navigate these spaces that were never meant for me.
Now, I am not pulling the “woe is me” card. But, when another headline comes across Twitter or Buzzfeed, I cannot help but recognize the privilege of those around me. The privilege to not have this weighted feeling. The privilege to not ever wonder if this will affect you. This used to be a feeling that I felt once in a while, but the way 2020 has been set up, this feeling is now daily.
So really, I am writing this to check in with you all. Women, especially black women.
What coping mechanisms are you all practicing or trying out? Are they working?
If you are in Corporate America, how has 2020 affected you?
How has your mental health been affected?
I really just had a case of word vomit and sometimes you just have to get your thoughts out.
There are no right or wrong answers for surviving. Thanks, y'all!