I have always worked. Since I was old enough to get a job. I have always done what it takes to keep a roof over my family’s head and food on our table. I was married to a spouse who during our 23 year marriage worked 6 1/2 of them. So I always took jobs based on family need.
I am now divorced with two children and recently relocated to North Carolina. I was fortunate to transfer with the company that I worked for back home; especially during the pandemic. It is retail and considered essential so I am thankful to be working. All of that build up is for this conundrum. I hate this job!
The position I left was receiver for the store. Dealing with inventory, paperwork and some customer service. The position I took here is team lead. It is very customer service heavy and my new manager is pretty toxic. There has been talk of the receiver position opening here and I mentioned I’d be interested but she’s talking to a young man who has been at the store for a week about it. While she’s not openly hostile towards me there is a lot of passive aggressive behavior.
I am over 40 and at a point in my life that I really want a job that I can settle into and use my years of skills and knowledge to benefit a company and be there long term. I would also like a job that I like going to most days. I know all jobs have there ups and downs. I don’t know what that looks like though. I don’t know what I want to do. People ask what I enjoy and I have no answer. I like inventory but I don’t want to work in the high pressure environment of a distribution center. I know I have developed a distaste for retail. I am an introvert and find this environment exhausting. I like paperwork but most clerical jobs pay pretty low around here. I have many years of management but having been a district manager I know I don’t want to be a big boss and be on the clock 24/7 like that anymore.
I am feeling a little lost and I guess I’m not even sure if there is a question here. I think I’m just looking for ideas on finding where to go from here.