I have just left a rewarding yet demanding position for another position...help!
Five years ago I left a Human Resources position, which I loved, for a slight downgraded Administrative Assistant position with similar duties. At the time, I took this other position to move across country to be close to my family after my divorce. When I first got to the position there were parts I liked but also parts I hated. I stuck it out and in the end loved my job despite a horrible boss, but I wasn't getting the pay I wanted and missed the HR world. Fast forward to a little over a year ago. I had updated my resume and applied for other positions which were promotions. I landed one, and after much thinking took the job even though it was now a 45 min to an hour commute each way. I made adjustments in my home life and schedule and went to my new position. Many of my duties were the same as my previous position, but now had extensive budget work which is not a duty I cared for. The people I worked with were excellent compared to my previous position. My supv was great, new coworkers were pretty good too. After I started doing the work, I almost immediately wanted out. I hated the budget work. Eventually, I sucked it up and pressed on. Over time, I made significant contributions to my position. I made a lot of noticeable changes which were appreciated and helped people. I grew to love most of my position. I ended up backing up another dept and had some collateral duties which made my position difficult. I found myself working a lot of overtime and being extremely stressed. I was constantly trying to balance home and work. The COVID situation in some ways helped me because I got to telework for most of my work. On the days I had to go into the office I hated the commute, as it added about 2 hours to my day. My position became very challenging. I worked a ton, but had a flexible schedule and the telework saved me. During our peak crazy time, which is where we have seasonal employees, I had a difficult time balancing work and homelife. I got upset one day and started applying for other positions. All were either lateral reassignments or positions that came with promotions. I didn't hear back from most of them. So, I stayed and then another position popped up in HR very close to me (15 mins away) but it was advertised at a lower level with promotion attached to it. So, I applied. I heard back fairly quickly. I had an interview, and then a 2nd a week later. Then they offered me the position and I accepted. So, now I'd be back in HR, closer to home and will still be teleworking, but I had to take a slight paycut for a few months, due to the way the position was announced, then I'll go back to my current pay. I was excited but then reality set in. How was I going to tell my boss and was I doing the right thing? I almost didn't take the position. I love my boss, he is an awesome person and I work with others who are awesome too. But, I won't be teleworking forever and then there is that horrible budget work and long hours. Another issue is that at my current position there is a problem where too many people are married working in the same place so info that should be secure isn't. So, I stuck with my decision and am going to the new position. Now I am wondering if I am doing the right thing? I'm having a hard time knowing that my supv and team are going to struggle without me and I feel very guilty for leaving. I do know my position there won't go any higher and there are few avenues for advancement. So, now that I said goodbye I am regretting my decision and wondering if I am doing the right thing? Does anyone have any advice? I feel like a horrible person for leaving, especially during the pandemic and I am scared for the new position. Should I have waited for a better opportunity? Should I have stayed and stuck it out? I am very isolated in my work situation so there aren't many people in my life who understand my dilemma.