I have been working on my Ph.D. in a related field to my profession for the last 7 years. Approximately 3 years ago, I quit my last job because I realized that I would never be able to finish my Ph.D. while working in this job. I had a backup plan, that would pay my bills while still allowing me to focus on my Ph.D. However, soon after I quit, I was approached by my current boss to work with her as a project manager for her research. I was uniquely qualified for the work, as I was both interested in research and had the experience in the necessary field for her research project. She was also on my plan of study committee.
The last three years have been challenging. One of the things that I negotiated was working 32 hours a week so that I could have time to work on my Ph.D.
That schedule was only honored if I could make it happen. She was also passive-aggressive and had really crappy boundaries. For instance, she would send me orders over text during weekends. I also found her in my desk a few times. And she would rearrange my office. I never really felt comfortable taking vacation because I would come back to my desk and office being covered in stickie notes and a request to change the systems in place because they didn't work for her. They were all her systems. But because she didn't do the work often, she would forget how to use them. This created a lot of unnecessary work, only to have it all scrapped the next time I was out.
Covid was actually a blessing. I did not mind working from home at all. And it was nice to have my space the way I wanted it. There was still a lot of texting during my off-hours. I eventually learned to just hide her notifications and only look at them on Monday. Of course, I would have to try to remember to turn on her notifications.
Much of this probably wouldn't have bothered me if I weren't also working on my Ph.D., but I really needed that uninterrupted time. The passive-aggressiveness and the poor boundaries would have bothered me no matter what. But I tolerated it because I felt like the experience and the mentorship was worth it. In October I took my comprehensive exams. I was able to take one vacation day each week in October. But it was a nightmare. For one month, I stared at the computer screen, feeling like I wasn't doing anything well. At the end of it, I was exhausted, and even though I passed I didn't feel good about it at all. Instead, I felt resentful. In a conversation with my boss, she informed me that there would be no money to continue my employment after June. And instead of being upset, I felt relief.
I knew I needed to reduce my hours, but hadn't made any concrete decisions about what to do. And then I got an offer to teach a class. I really enjoy teaching, and I was excited to take the offer. But it meant that I would now be working full time instead of 36 hours, which was the opposite of what I wanted to do. And the truth is, I enjoy teaching more than I enjoy my job. I was able to look at my finances and I realized that I could afford to not work for the next year, which would allow me to teach this class and focus on my dissertation.
So I put in my notice. I told my boss on December 4 and my last day will be January 7. Of course, there is winter break in the middle, so it's not quite as long as a month. I offered to volunteer for her lab, but she nixed that idea and brought up me working for her as a student employee for 10 hours. I was willing to do that. As that still would have left me at halftime and with plenty of time to work on my dissertation.
I am going to start by saying that I know that my quitting put her under a lot of stress. It definitely throws a wrench in her plans. Which is part of why I was willing to volunteer. However, since that conversation things have gone downhill. To help with the transition I started working the full 40+ hours a week. But I still wanted to take two vacation days during the Christmas week. She was angry and resentful about it.
In a text message from her, she expressed being upset because I did not consult her before accepting a new job, nor did I consult her about taking a vacation during winter break. (I did inform her verbally, but she doesn't remember it. ) She also felt that I should have told her so that she could let me know what would happen to my career if I quit without discussing it with her. She is now trying to call a meeting with me and my dissertation advisor so that we can discuss what will happen.
I nixed that, as I told both of them that involving my advisor for my PhD was not appropriate for an employee-employer dispute.
I don't think I am being crazy. I really don't think her behavior is appropriate, nor do I think that I had an obligation to discuss and seek her input about this with her before making the decision. Her priority is the project (as it should be), my priority is taking care of myself.
I don't know if I need any advice. Mostly I am just sad because none of this has to be this bad, but it is. I am currently at the point, that I won't take any vacation days, but I also won't work more than 32 hours a week. She will actually get less time from me, but I've lost all motivation to help, and now I just want out. The less I am there, the better.
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