This is quite long, but please bear with me. I need help.
It was my senior year when I was offered a job at the same office I had my internship. They said that I had become I vital part of their operation since I started as an intern and they wanted to keep the progress they were having. Few days before my first day, they told me that the administration will only hire me part-time for 6 months probation and my salary is obviously low and that I will not have the usual benefits regular employees will have, I was really doubtful at this point but my supervisors convinced me that my job would be more than my usual tasks during the internship, that I would be introduced and trained to external linkages which from my understanding is working in the field and will expand my network and that they will also help me get a scholarship for my Master's degree if I hop in, plus I will become regular employee after 6 months. It was my first job, so I thought it would have been also a great idea to work with people I already know.
Fast forward to 6 months, There was only one informal training I received and I did not become a regular employee. They asked me to renew my part-time contract because they need me and told me that it's going to be difficult to find a job in the market during the pandemic. So I did. From having to render only 3 days they asked me to go to work for 5 days because they badly need the manpower. I was scared to be unemployed during these times. They said we should all still be thankful we still have jobs compared to others and that my extra hours of work will impress our bosses to make me a regular employee. I also understand that what they're saying are facts, but I feel a bit gaslighted by what they said. I also thought it would be better for my resume if I completed one whole year in my first job.
During work from home adjusted I noticed that I and sometimes my supervisor are the only ones logging in on time for work every day. It felt like my other co-workers were slacking off half of the workday. During payday, they would announce it and celebrate it in our group chat that money is in. Since I'm a part-timer my salary isn't given as frequently as they were, and I also had to get my salary in the office whilst regular employees' money is being deposited. They keep talking about their free-internet pay, which also is not available for part-timers. I understand the system I just wished they were a bit more sensitive about my situation, I even opened up to my supervisor if I could get a more convenient way to get my salary and they said we have to follow the HR system. Peak season and I was really working hard, I was keeping up the same energy and work ethics I believe that should retain even though there's a pandemic. I was burned out, it started affecting my mental health. Our customers are enraged and I feel like I was absorbing it.
I was so burned out, to the point, I faked a job offer and told my supervisors I was being offered a job with a fair salary with benefits. My supervisor then told me that they will be having a counteroffer and that another job offer was still too low and that I should consider because their offer is going to be higher, better and I still have to work only at home. So I did, it was like a promise and that they assured me that what happened will not happen again.
Exactly the official month where I become a regular employee (1 year) I hear no update from my supervisors and HR, it even felt like they were avoiding interactions with me. So I decided to follow up because it's almost the end of the month, we had a meeting that they said it might be hard to have me regularize at the moment since our hiring is on freeze and the office is planning to lay off workers and lessen other people's salary because the pandemic took a toll in our revenues. It felt like they were saying that it would not look good to other departments if someone from our office turns regular and receive a raise. My supervisor then told me that they will try their hardest to get me an offer for me to stay, fast forward to another month. I was offered a new contract, my working hours of 8hours 5 days a week is more official than ever.. sadly, there were NO benefits still included and when you compute it I'm even below the minimum pay of regular employee salary in our country but they keep insisting that I am now a full-time employee.
I was devastated but it felt like I couldn't do anything, and that it was more of my fault why I am now in my position. I don't feel motivated anymore... I even feel angry sometimes. I started slacking off a bit, and I keep looking for side hustles available. I think my supervisors are noticing it and they keep giving hints in the group chat about working harder and being grateful for having a job. Their talking manner is getting more offending for me it felt like they want to make me feel that I should be more because I had a little bit of a raise during these times.
I feel like I'm wasting my time, but I am also actively looking for a job and it is indeed hard. What should I do? Am I just overreacting? I'm planning to leave work this December, should I do it? I want to save money and I just turned 22.
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Is this a red flag?
I just had a video interview and the gentleman I would be working the most with asked if I was a quick learner. I told him I believe that I am. His response was "I guess everyone needs to say that. I don't like to answer questions more than twice." My response was "Well, it's a good thing I like to take notes" and I showed him my note pad I had been scribbling in since the begining of the interview . We laughed it off but... I'm thinking this might not be the best learning environment.
Some background about the company: it was started in the 90s and the same 6 people who started it are still working there today. Some of their systems are so old that they are no longer supported by the manufacturer. I would be replacing a person who wants to start their retirement.
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Not sure what else I can do..
Just over a year ago I got a new boss. She came in strong and made some changes that a lot were not happy with. She claims to be holding people accountable but she’s really just pointing the finger and persecuting everyone for their mistakes.
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One of my direct reports has quit because of her and I am also looking for other employment. Several others have stated the same (which was shared with HR). I feel as if I’ve done my due diligence for my team but nothing is being done above me.
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Just need to mildly vent.
I recently lost my contract job and have had to start the applying and interview process again UGH! Anyway, have a second interview with a company for a position that I’m over qualified for and will be making a lot less money. The second interview is where I have to do a presentation followed by questions. Not thrilled by no issues. What I am annoyed with is having to send them my presentation in advanced. I was more prepared to just take over the screen and present. Why do companies feel that they can ask for your work and possibly use a later date. It is bad enough when you are asked questions about a past project that the company may also be considering and want to know your ideas and processes on how you accomplished it. (You see them writing down notes during this specific conversation), and not call you back for the next stage of interview.
So of course going to put in pdf, no notes, and password protect which is about all that can be done.
Just needed to get this off my chest
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I'm going to go a little differently on this.
While I appreciate the employee's personal challenges, you both have roles that need to be performed for the company. I actually am sensing some manipulation by the employee and you stepped straight into it. If she is messaging you on Facebook, that means that you probably added her as a personal friend. It sounds like potential manipulation lured you into blurring boundaries that could set you up for a challenging situation down the road particularly if her performance is not up to par. It is possible to be an empathetic leader while also maintaining appropriate workplace boundaries. Many people today are going through different types of struggles. The balance is in finding humanity while also having realistic expectations of them to perform their role and being clear on the boundaries. It's fantastic the employee is in therapy but therapy is not something to be weaponized for poor performance. Incredibly, there's nothing in this long post about how this employee is actually performing their job. I think more of your time should be spent on helping her achieve career goals versus getting into her personal situation about which you only hear one side. I found that it's best to maintain professional boundaries especially with someone who reports to you. If you decide to be friends after one of you leaves the job, that's completely fine. But while you're on the job, situations like this are fraught with landmines.
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What is going on with this forum?!
Some of the posters are so nice and supportive…and others just want to tear women down! It’s so incredibly sad. I keep reading things and wonder if the person would respond the same way if they were speaking in-person. Maybe keep scrolling if you can’t be civil and constructive?