I am three years from retirement and have had a decent career providing program planning and direct counseling services to psychiatric patients in a large hospital.
I also have ADD, inattentive type, which has gotten a little worse with age in terms of time blindness, losing things, memory problems, disorganization, distractibility. This year has been extremely stressful and it's showing up in these symptoms. I am also highly intelligent, creative and passionate about treatment for our patients, a good writer and researcher. All these things can trigger hyperfocus for me (the ADD superpower), and I do a good job. However, every train wreck I've faced in my career has happened when I'm subjected to very close scrutiny or a demand that I perform a task I know I'll fail at. For example, meticulous daily recordkeeping, the need for exacting punctuality every day, highly detailed multitasking. I am currently in trouble related to - wait for it - remembering to swipe in and swipe out every day with a new time clock system and a meticulous timekeeper. I have been written up for this three times and I'm doing much better but still not perfect. Do you think, in the long run, that my strengths might outweigh my swiping problems? The more anxious I become about it, the harder it is. I'm trying but this is so discouraging and embarrassing at my age.