How do I maintain a job I hate?
I've been w/ my currently company 90 days and it's a bad fit; it was bad from day one. Management is nonexistent and when my boss is present he's condescending, rude, yelling, talking over ppl, etc. His passive aggressive style of management does not work for me. On top of that, I've tried to do one on one meetings and he never attends or is too busy. I've tried to ask him what days and time work best for him, no response. So after he blew that off about 5 times, I decided to leave that alone. No 90 day review or idea on goals and expectations.
I was asked to work on a software project. When I asked about a timeline or budget, no response. Then how am I to source software? And I haven't been at the company long enough nor do I feel comfortable enough with the current software to be making changes. Another employee also told me that they have only had the software 18 months. I was also told that my team needs to cut their overtime which only occurs during the month end close. I sat on the call about the close, and listened to my boss say that it's okay for them to work overtime, and to do whatever to get it done. Now he wants me to address it with the team. I'm still trying to learn my team and build a rapport with them. When I asked him what's a more acceptable amount of overtime during the monthly close, he could not provide a specific response. I do not approve my team's time so when he mentioned that overtime was an issue, I told him that I didn't have access to their time. I asked him for visibility or permission to approve their time. Nothing happened. I asked him 3 times before he sent me the overtime report of my team's time. I have no problem addressing the issue, but I can't address what I don't know and I'm not seeing. He stated that I need to be on top of this, but I can't without the resources to do so.
I just feel that I'm being set up for failure. I've tried talking to him and I get nowhere. And I don't want to go to HR and make things worst for myself (I've had a bad experience in the past and I know HR works to protect the company).
I work from home and I dread it. I've become depressed and I'm not sleeping. I've started a job search, but given the present economy and health crisis, things are taking longer. I also don't want to jump out of the frying pan into the fire. I just want to remain under the radar and continue to do my job and complete my stealth job search so that I can move on from this nightmare.