Overcoming The Negative

Hello, everyone. I’m about to do something with this article that I normally don’t do. I am going to be completely vulnerable! This is a big deal for me because I usually try to keep my emotions in check. Moreover, I hate to show any signs that may give the appearance of weakness; but today, I’m going to try something new. So here goes: I need your help. I have a problem; and truth be told, I should probably sit down with a therapist at some point, but I figured I would take it to my ultra-talented and super-knowledgeable LinkedIn family and friends first. I’m quite sure you all can help me. Plus, I know it will be much cheaper than going to see a therapist. Before getting into my problem, I need to give you guys a little background first. Three months ago, I launched a podcast along with my husband and my brother-in-law called The Mind Pop Zone. The podcast has been doing great. We’ve attracted listeners from all over the world. People have emailed us and told us how entertained they are with our podcast. We have heard nothing but positive comments. People seem to truly love the Mind Pop Zone Podcast. By all indications, the podcast has been a success thus far; yet, for some reason, I don’t feel that way. Therein lies my problem. Why is it that I always seem to focus on the negatives instead of reveling in my accomplishments? I hate to admit it, but the other two hosts of my podcast are just more positive than I am. They recognize the growth of our show. They take pride in the fact that we have attracted a nice sized audience of loyal listeners in a relatively small period of time. For them, the glass is definitely half-full. I, on the other hand, feel the exact opposite. For me, the podcast isn’t growing fast enough. The numbers aren’t where they need to be. We should’ve been number one yesterday. Now, when I sit down and truly examine my thoughts, I know this is an unhealthy way of thinking. Not to mention, I know it’s not even realistic to reach the level of success of podcast juggernauts like the Joe Rogan Podcast or My Favorite Murders Podcast in three short months. However, I still engage in this negative self-talk. And this isn’t just for my podcast. In my daily life, I could literally receive 10,000 positive comments and exactly one negative comment, and I will get caught up in that one negative comment and totally overlook the 10,000 positive. Even when there is nothing negative associated with what I’m doing, I sometimes create something artificially negative. Yes, I realize I sometimes do this for my own motivation, but is it truly healthy? FairyGodBoss family and friends, please tell me I’m not alone with my thought mechanisms. I am certain that there are others who deal with this same type of thing. My question to you all is: should I change my way of thought, or should I not be overly concerned with it since it has probably played a role in my past successes? If I’m being honest with myself, my glass half-empty mentality will probably help the Mind Pop Zone Podcast grow to the levels I want it to grow. But I’m also sure that it will probably create a lot of unwarranted stress and anxiety in my life. FairyGodBoss friends, help me out. What do you think?