I have worked for the same organisation for a 15 years and now have a number of health issues .

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September 30,2021 at 12:42PM UTC

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I have worked for the same organisation for a 15 years and now have a number of health issues . I got

Covid in late January early February this year and feel that I have lost my abilities and have lost my motivation to work. The culmination being I had been set some task with specific deadlines that I did not complete . The worst part is that reviews took place an I lied that jobs/tasks had been done when I hadn't done them. Susquently the due date /arrived and even the morning i was asking for more time, then saw an email from my manager asking for an explanation; I burst into tears an left the office . Anyone had any similar experience ?and if so what was the outcome ? I have been trying all week to speak to my manager but I just end up crying from just dialing his number I welcome your comments

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AnonymousSeptember 30,2021 at 2:07PM UTC
I'm not sure how your health issues relate to you lying about tasks that have been completed. It seems to me you may have missed the mark in alerting your supervisor that you've lost your abilities and your motivation to work. You're unfortunately in a position where you've cooked the books, lied about your deliverables, and now you're trying to hide behind emotional outbursts hoping for some sympathy from your boss. Reasonably, how long would you expect your employer to continue issuing a paycheck if you're delivering nothing and lying about work?
Behavior like this is exactly what gives professionals in the workplace a bad rap. So you have an opportunity to step up and take full responsibility for yourself and your actions. I'm not sure how else you'll salvage this 15-year stint with this employer. It sounds like you're about to be fired and having a crying fit is only going to extend this agony, for everyone. Time to be an adult, disclose that you'd lost all motivation, be 100% accountable for yourself and your actions, and reveal lied about your work.
If this relationship is salvageable, I'd come to this meeting with well thought out corrective steps to get yourself back on track. Although I wouldn't be surprised if your employer terminates you or suggests a mutual separation.
Please show some integrity and end this web of lies so both you and your employer can move forward.
Marie DawkinsSeptember 30,2021 at 3:36PM UTC
I have not been like this for 15 years. I only started lying since I came back from sick June July, I don't even know why I think it was more embarrassment. As I have a young manager who kept reminding me that I'm an experienced manager and didn't hear when I said I didn't feel like one.
AnonymousSeptember 30,2021 at 3:54PM UTC
I have not been like this for 15 years, in fact this is first time In my employment history that i have been on a service improvement plan (SIP), I have always held up my hand for my weaknesses but don't feel I was being heard. My Manager is young and ambitious and makes me feel like a project he has taken on rather than a valued employee.
AnonymousSeptember 30,2021 at 6:20PM UTC
As the other comment stated, you do need to take ownership for your actions and lack of delivering on the expectations. Unfortunately it is too late for excuses there. I’m personally more concerned about the change in your attitude towards work and towards your core beliefs. I’d highly recommend talking to a therapist so you don’t continue down a path that will affect your employment status and emotional well-being.
Emmy BemmySeptember 30,2021 at 7:15PM UTC
You could have long-haul covid, which has a higher prevalence of depression/anxiety. The general impact of the pandemic is also causing an increase in these disorders.
You do need to take ownership of your work performance, but you should also probably talk to your doctor or a therapist about your feelings.
https://katv.com/news/local/covid-19-long-haulers-experiencing-long-term-mental-health-impacts
I hope you start to feel better soon!