I stumbled upon this diary entry I'd completely forgotten I'd ever written: before I had an electronic diary, I'd sometimes write things in my email or the Notes app in my phone. It was all about my struggle in December 2015 to decide if I was going to leave my fiancé. I didn't love him anymore and wanted out, but I was terrified and didn't have anywhere to go. I'm now happily married to someone else and I'm so glad I was able to find the strength to leave that relationship. Temporary discomfort related to finding an apartment, moving, etc., was so minor compared to the immense, long-term pain of being in a life with someone I would've hated.