So much going on here, I'll try to be concise as possible. I believe all of this has already been touched on by others, but here are my thoughts (note that I am not in HR, so this is not a legal/official position, just my experience):
I think it's time you look for a new position. This is not a disagreement with your management over working conditions, this is a fundamental irreconcilable difference over how the job is to be performed. An employer can set the rules - for better or worse - about working on site vs working remotely, and nothing requires them to allow remote work. This is not a change to any employment contract or conditions, this is reverting back to normal. Your employer can require this, just as you can decide it's not the lifestyle you want anymore. There's no shame in changing your priorities, you just can't expect everyone else to change theirs to match yours. You need to make your life work for you.
Yes, you have the right to request a reasonable accommodation, but an RA does not mean you can dictate whatever you want. It needs to be a reasonable request that does not interfere with the employer's work (again, not legal advice, check with your HR for exact details). Your employer has declared your department needs to work on site, which it sounds like is reverting back to pre-Covid procedure. The work from home was meant to be temporary while there was a public health emergency. Did you have difficulties working in the office previously? Or with commuting? It sounds as though your current issues are all connected to Covid. How do you intend to deal with this moving forward? What if we start treating Covid like the flu (annoying and a possibly dangerous illness, but just something to live with)? Are you planning on never going out again ever for the rest of you life? Other than grocery shopping and funerals? (And with respect to funerals, people are going to jump on me for saying this, but funerals are not necessary. There are many possible and personal ways to grieve on our own, and I feel like people often feel required to attend them for appearance reasons.)
Ask yourself honestly, for the past two years, have you really gone nowhere else, just the grocery store and a funeral? No doctor appointments? No going out for a brief coffee break? No walks through town? No farmers markets? No vigils/protests? No religious services? You haven't seen ANY family or friends in person? You spent every holiday home alone? You don't mention if you live with others - have any household members been out and about? And how did you get to the funeral - did you drive alone in your car? Did you fly? Take a train/bus/other public transit? How many people were at the funeral (doesn't sound like any capacity restrictions, because Florida)? Was it indoors? I know this is harsh questioning, but if you are going to request an RA, your doctor is going to ask all of this. I have an RA for anxiety (not related to on site vs remote), and even though I've been treated by my doctor for almost ten years, he went through this type of questioning with me before he would sign off on one. And even then, he and I discussed the options that would allow me to take care of myself but still be able to work within my employment requirements. So just be aware that even an RA may not approve you for fulltime remote work.
Also consider if you want to be the only person in your department not physically present. Yes, remote work has been successful, but everyone has been remote. How will it be realistically to be the only person zooming into an in-person meeting? You won't be there for casual conversations around the office, which would mean you will miss out on any project discussions and not be able to contribute (decisions may be made without you). Your colleagues may also slowly start to forget that you are part of the group, and things will start happening without you. I don't know the nature of your work so this may not apply exactly, but put it into the context of your day-to-day work. Will it still be a job you love if things change?
All of this is a long way of saying that until you're able to figure out how to reintegrate yourself into the world, you need to find a position that will let you continue to work fully from home without any negative repercussions. Yourself and your physical and mental health should be your priority, and you have a lot of issues you need to work through with your doctors and therapists (if you don't have one, get one ASAP). You're going to need to figure out how to make yourself better, and that really sounds like it includes finding a position that better suits your needs. Even if you manage to stay at home fulltime in your current job, it's not going to remain the same. Plus, do you really want to stay somewhere that is causing you this additional stress? Focus on finding a job that works for you, not trying to bend your current, very rigid, one to fit a new reality. Good luck!
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