Thank you all for your transparency! I will be moving out of my area in a few years to start another chapter- life in retirement- and the thing that looms the largest to me is going to a brand new place, not knowing anyone and trying to meet new people. On a good day, I envision myself being successful and developing a group of women friends I love to be around but on a bad day, I see myself under a blanket of crushing loneliness and isolation, eating mallomars and binge watching tv. I haven't envisioned a middle ground yet.